Here goes, such a long time and SO MUCH has happened in the last few months...where to start!?!
I am feeling surprisingly OK bodily-not much in the way of symptoms today really. I have my good old sound sensitivity but most of the other troublesome stuff seems to have relaxed for the time being at least!
Mentally things have been a HUGE challenge lately though, but thankfully that too has started to lift so all's good! I take thyroid hormone for an underactive thyroid and had allowed my drug regime to slip a bit with the stress of some work issues that have been rumbling on for a long time now. This resulted in me becoming hypothyroid, with the usual dry skin, hair falling out, worsening fatigue, pain and depression.
Depression is such an empty word don't you think? Doesn't really cut it when you start to try to describe how it eats away at your life, your character and your very being. I've had it before, and recovered before, but it's always just a few forgotten thyroid meds away-but I am fortunate to know it's cause and to be able to sort it out within a few short weeks of following my drug regime properly, or altering the dose with the gp.
I can't really say what's happening at work STILL....! Suffice it to say that it is a very uneccesary situation concerning my working hours and advice from Occ.Health. It seems to go from being confusing, troubling and upsetting to MORE confusing, MORE troubling and MORE upsetting!!! I really hope I can get some resolution with it so I can blog some details...maybe it might help someone going through a similar process, you never know. I sincerely hope that nobody is though, it's such a stress.
I'd like to say a warm and VERY HEARTFELT welcome back to my good friend Kerry, who has been absent for such a long time due to ME/CFS which had begun to affect her eyes so badly that being online was no longer possible. She is a fantastically determined and strong lady, who instills great calm and admiration. She writes 'Lemon-aidonline', a beautifully written blog, the link to which is on my bloglist. Thanks to some magical software Kerry is now able to rejoin her friends in cyber-space, and am I pleased to see her!
After stumbling across and reading her blog, then becoming friends, I was inspired to have a crack at blogging myself- so if you wish to protest at my being let loose with a keyboard at all.....Kerry will be pleased to hear from you!!!
Enough for now- take care and take a trip to 'Lemon-aideonline' to say "Hi" to my mentor!!!
Zarla
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What a treat today, Zarla, to have both you and Kerry post. Yes, I agree that depression is an inadequate word, as if we're "depressing" something that. That's not it at all. It fills our whole being. I hope hope hope that you get this work mess straightened out. I'm so glad to hear that your physical symptoms have cleared up considerably. Love to you. Toni
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ReplyDeleteWow! Girl, you don't waste much time do you? I'd just blinked and your comment was here! Thankyou for the nice words, I don't think I've ever been described as 'a treat', or even a half a one!
I too am grateful for the symptom respite, it's great when it happens. Work will eventually get sorted out in one way or another - I'm a patient girl really!
Good luck with the broadcasts and take care
Zxx
Zarla, I am so happy to be able to read your blog again. How I've missed you. Thank you for your oh so KIND words...mentor?...wow, did that lift my confidence today. You, my friend, are a mentor of a sense of humor in the midst of adversity and a distributor of "springs" which those you touch can attach to the bottom of their feet (or perhaps to their backs if bed ridden) and feel "bouncy"in spirit in the midst of their own life struggles. Your sprinkle fun and encouragement...let it Zarla snow!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to here that your physical health has improved. The thyroid gland can cause a lot of problems when not in balance! The depression it caused you sounds like it was darn right painful...I'm glad it is lifting.
The process with work sounds like it has been quite a burden to carry on top of illness. Your blogging about it, when it feels right, will definitely help someone in a similar situation. The simple knowing that someone else has gone through what your are gives much comfort and encouragement.
So happy to be back visiting Carrying Elephants...and Zarla!
Kerry,
ReplyDeleteTalk about confidence-lifting words, what can I say? I could do with all the lifts and smiles I can get right now, and your comment has hit the spot, thankyou!
Just be careful Kerry, there's a spring delivery on it's way to you-bounce carefully!
Oh, and I'm watching the weather forecast on the BBC, makes no mention of 'Zarla-snow'!
Zxx